Going and Seeing

It surely has been a long time since I’ve posted anything on this blog. Sometimes, when I tend to think nobody ever visits this page, my mind and my heart gets in this battle of whether my writing here ever is of any use. My dad used to tell me, one never becomes a writer unless somebody actually reads what he writes. So, am I a writer? I’d like to think that I am. I do. Just recently, during one of my talks with the Lord, a stirring within me has started. A desire. A desire to write; a desire to write for the Lord. Not just a journal. Not just a private blog. But a book that the world is invited to read. Thinking about it, a gap in my being suddenly bridged itself together, and a new path had suddenly appeared in where that dead end used to be. Maybe the Lord has lifted the pillar of cloud, and I am to set out again.

Right at this moment, I feel like a lowly shepherd, tending sheep in the dark of the night, while others are in their happy places, oblivious. I feel like a shepherd, ignoring the cold wisps of wind that always find ways to my skin. I feel like a shepherd, fighting the drowsiness fatigue and coldness had caused. But at the same time, I also feel like the shepherds in the fields of the gospels that were revealed to of God’s most precious gift. The same feeling had also been granted to me. I was a nobody. But I am greatly loved. I have been given the gift of salvation, and of life, although I was a nobody.

“Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.” Luke 2:15b

You read it right. One can never see unless he goes. One can never tell unless he sees. This is me, and what I should do. This is what we should do. By the Lord’s grace we are given a path to follow, a single direction. Our paths might look slightly different from each other, and some obstacles might pop up earlier than the others might, but this is the path given to us. And unless we go, we could never see the Lord’s glory and what He has prepared for us. It sounds so easy, I know. And in this material world, it’s such a tight path to go through, it becomes less easy than trying to fight a dozen ninjas, I know.

Go. It seems such a strong word, doesn’t it? Having wobbly steps in the spiritual realm, it even seems scarier to perceive. I think I’ve said this for the nth time already, and people might find it overrated, but because of its truth and validity, I’d have to say it again: With God, our strength is made complete.

Oh, what am I saying. Thing is, our vision right now might be clouded, making it hard for us to see, although the Lord already has laid down in front of us what He wants us to do. It might be fear that is hindering us, or insecurity, or even a busy schedule. These things are too big they eat up too much space in front of us, of course, we’d barely see anything. Go and see. Do not be afraid. Go and see.

I know you think New Year’s resolutions are childish and overrated, but hey, I might just be making one right now for a de-clouding of vision, so, until the next post. :)

XOXO, Aine