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Sunday, December 15, 2013

Far Beyond



I do not know why I just got emotional a few minutes ago, hunched, and sobbing over a song I have only heard once. Hearing, for the first time, the song that so much helped me reclaim the promise the Lord had once released, probably was a major factor. It isn't easy. In fact, I couldn't count the times how much I had been on my knees, and in tears, just to pray that God take away this restlessness this deceitful heart had urged me to swallow. I also couldn't count how many times I had been discouraged to the point of grumbling to God about the pace certain things were going.


I tell myself I'm barely near the defining moment, but sometimes, I just want to see what the ending looks like from here. Talk about being as impatient as a hungry pet cat. Most girls are like that, I believe. I just want to thank the Lord for people like the Ludys who minister to people who go through the same thing I (and most close friends I know) go through. When you battle with your heart, it's not a minor thing.





Far Beyond by Eric and Leslie Ludy
At the end of this post is the video of this song. Hope you listen along to it.



I hear it in a love song or see it on a movie screen
The kind of perfect love story
That I have always dreamed
Would somehow come into my life
And yet it seems so out of reach
It’s all I think about sometimes
Will I ever find a love that’s meant to be?
Maybe these thoughts seem foolish
To a holy God who made the sea and land
But you were the One who created
Love between a woman and a man
And deep inside I hear you say
You see all my hopes and fears
And if I give to You the pen of my life
You’ll write a tale that all heaven can cheer


Far beyond my deepest heart’s desire
Far beyond what I could ever dream
Far beyond my fairy tale imaginations
Is your perfect plan for me
There’s no limit to romance in all its beauty
When the Author of love shapes my destiny
Far beyond the most that I could long for
I will find the dreams you have dreamed for me


I could search forever
I could look for true love everywhere
If all my dreams were answered
They still could not compare
To the beauty of Your ways
And all Your plans for my life
‘cause You’ve been scripting out a story for me
Before the very foundations of time





It's beautiful, really, to just be assured of greater things. Far greater things. Far beyond.



Friday, December 13, 2013

Hey?



I'm terribly sorry for not being able to post my supposed posts the past week. Not having an internet connection even for a while sure has its disadvantages, but as much as it has its downs, life seems pretty much more peaceful without it. But I do promise to make it up. I believe I owe this blog a few posts.



As you can see, I changed my banner again! And you had probably also noticed one more change at the sidebar. Being pretty much an OC on visuals here, I resorted to drawing my own. (Nothing downloadable ever seems to match me.) Of course my dad helped me on the final tweaks like adding color to my letters. He says it's too dull. 









These are the original pictures I had drawn over our British Literature class earlier this morning. I was hoping to use the originals but my dad says I made a lot of line "gaps" on my drawings so keeping it as it is would be a very tedious task. I can't even explain it technically, but I know you get it. It's fine, though. I actually still liked how the changes turned out. It helps to have a dad do the hard stuff for you. :)



I'm extremely looking forward to this Sunday's Thanksgiving celebration. Despite clouded perceptions until today, I am still claiming the Lord's work over His church. For He Who began a good work in us will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. If this isn't enough assurance that will keep a thankful heart in us, I'm not sure what else is.



I'd be posting more soon, so I hope you wouldn't get tired of me. Thank you!


I love you with the love of the Lord!




Thursday, December 5, 2013

The Unlikely Disciple by Kevin Roose (Book Review)




I went in Booksale praying for a good book to read. As usual, I squatted at the “Religious/Spiritual” section and scanned the spines with hovering fingers. I picked up a few books with catchy titles and put them back on the shelf after realizing the not-so-good content (according to my taste!) or the not-so-friendly price tag.


Then this came out of nowhere (Nah, not really. I found it somewhere in between poorly arranged hardbound books.). This book came to me with a spark, despite my battling over choosing it over the “Hundred Years of Solitude” novel we had discussed in our Novel class more than a year ago. Both novels had reasonable prices but in the end, I went for this book for four reasons:


1. My budget only allowed one book purchase today. (I’m broke!)
2. I still had two unread books that I feel too lazy to read.
3. I wanted a Christian novel this time. I realized I had to get in touch my fiction side, and worldly novels only mess up my thought life.
4. I’m not really a fan of the supposed-classics we’re forced to read in class. As you can tell, being an English major still hasn’t transformed me into a classics-obsessed bookworm. (I still do not get the supposed beauty of some classics – the authors’ ideologies are just too extreme at times, you know. Adultery, murder, and racism are only a few among these, and they’re considered normal!)



Let’s head on to the book though, as I do not want to delve into rants on inappropriate (a.k.a. sinful) themes celebrated in the literary world.





The Unlikely Disciple is Kevin Roose’s debut novel based on his true-to-life accounts as an English major taking a semester off to experience what it is like to study in a Christian University. In this semester, he immerses himself in the “Christian” life and environment most of the Americans seem to be oblivious about.


Honestly, I always had a soft spot for protagonists with the same major. They almost always think the way I do (for the most part anyway). And I identify with them almost immediately. Take Kevin Roose, for example. He’s your average skeptic observer with hundreds of questions hovering at the back of his head, despite his full-time experience in a Christian environment. Perhaps that’s a thing common between us: we question certain things (in my case, certain “rules and traditions” not even encouraged, nor mentioned in the Bible; his, though, varies).


Let’s get one thing straight. I thought this was a Christian novel, after reading its sub-title about a sinner’s semester at America’s holiest school. I was hoping it would be a classic Christian novel, but it turned out it was a novel of somewhere in between – simply of a journalist writing down his experience whilst within Christian territory. After a moment of disappointment however, a realization of its usefulness came tumbling in my head like a blessing rolling down the hill.



What I don’t like about it:
First of all, this is a skeptic’s writing. There would be quite several parts in the novel when the protagonist questions certain Bible teachings that he thinks is either out-dated or irrational. His raised eyebrows on teachings against sexual immorality or homosexuality for example, are only less than a chunk of his skepticism. I have no problem with skeptics, but the teachings he refuses to submit to (despite direct command from the Word), I just feel sad about. It’s thought-provoking, yes, but it makes me sad anyway.

What I like about it:
There are several things I actually like about this book. In a way, I had the privilege to know for myself what happens in an unbeliever’s train of thought. What makes it a good thing? Well, for starters, as Christians, we would not always stay inside our protective bubble. In fact, the lesser we know about how unbelievers logically counter the hope we hold on to, the harder it would be to share to them this victory. I believe allowing ourselves to understand their predicaments and the way they feel about faith, would make us better witnesses.


The Unlikely Disciple also gives us a clear picture of what a Christian community is like. There are pious, holier-than-thou kids, there are those passionately in love with the Lord, and there are several rebels who break laws but still go to Bible Study or church like everybody else. It was honestly as if I were reading a story about me and the other “Christians” that I know of. It is disheartening, really, to agree that the Christian “religion” now has almost become an organization of people who pray the Sinner’s prayer but still live an untransformed (and certainly an un-Christ-like)life (not everybody, but there is a great number). If we are to live continually like this, how do we expect to witness to the world when they couldn’t even see transformation through Christ, right?


It’s an eye-opener, really. It keeps us aware that people do wish to see the filthy side to Christianity. And if they do get to find a soiled spot, then there truly is a problem. After all, there isn’t supposed to be filth in a life in Christ.



Technically speaking, this is quite a light but engaging novel, despite the lack of clear climax (I was waiting for it, but it didn’t appear to me like, Boo!). I’m also impressed that for an English major, Kevin Roose didn’t go all the way with difficult English. It was sort of a journal, after all, and too much fragrance on language could become sickening too.
There were also several moments I had to press the pages to my face and laugh, confirming the good reviews I’ve read at the back of the book’s jacket cover. He is a witty writer with a witty humor, and I like that.



Overall, I’d easily give it 2 stars out of 5. (I could have given it 3 stars had the climax been more defined. I’d love to read more of your works though, Kevin!)




To those would want to read Kevin Roose’s The Unlikely Disciple, I highly encourage you to pray before reading it. I know it sounds weird as we only usually do that before reading the Bible, but it helps a lot, because readers, as I have learned (mostly out of experience), are almost automatically wired to root for a story’s protagonist. What they want become your desires too, and what they think is right you get convinced to believe too. Now, what if their perspectives are not aligned with the Truth? Come to think of it, reading books, in general, requires a great deal of discernment.


Hope you like my review and find it useful.






Sunday, December 1, 2013

Praying For Him




I am posting this because I just feel so great tonight, after having remembered two of my most reassuring dreams (Thank You, Lord for the reminding night sky). Aside from that, I also just got home from an insanely awesome day with my friends at Tinago Falls, where I almost fainted from climbing 300+ deadly steps (My body's exercise-deprived, okay?). I usually do not jump from a slimy rock on a mini-cliff, let alone swim in the only-God-knows-how-deep water (because I do not know how to swim), but I did. And it felt liberating, I might say. :) Pictures are still being processed, but hopefully I could borrow a few copies for the blog.

Aaah, there is just too much to be thankful for today, and the positive vibes are just teeming over the brim right now, I have to post this before I forget.





Why am I posting this? Well, the dreams, remember? It's a tiny reminder for myself, and I also would love to share the joy of waiting to my fellow "future" wives of the best men after God's own heart. Yes, you may pray for him despite not knowing him. Isn't that beyond romantic and fitting? C'mon, girls and let's sigh that big sigh to relieve us of too many butterflies in our stomachs from thinking about the beautiful, God-written future. Siiiiiiiigh. <3